The grace of prayer

I have never been a writer of poet I was told to put my thoughts on paper. So I started writing my councilor said putting my thoughts on paper would help me stay clean. I am sober 140 days now, one day at a time. I hope this helps someone thanks Chase.

 

 

 

The grace of prayer.

I have lived a life of Isolation…
felt alone even in a congregation…
Fear of people places and things…
I stayed quiet so as not to be seen…
I used whiskey, rum, gin, and beer to hide my fear…
they gave false courage for a time…
but when morning came I felt only despair and grime…
on the dark side of life I have seen Love though myself un-aware…
of the feeling it brings to your soul or the songs it sings…
my dark side lives on the side of Pride….
Pride is evil for it brings false feelings anger and rage…
it has consumed me to the point I was back in a cage…
in that cell though not on my knee’s…
I prayed please end this insanity this disease…
I have the grace of a Higher Power today…
that lifts my spirit my thoughts and ways…
he brings a sense of ease to my reckless life…
and gave me Compassion to feel, wrong from right…
I once served sin but now I’m free…
I pray for Wisdom to shower my soul to be…
the thought of Peace is new you see…
not worrying what wrong is waiting for me…
Material things was my biggest fear I had to let go and let him steer…
all the material worries of what I have and what I don't…
is not important but hard to let go…
and my Lust for women and rich’s and power…
will turn to dust in that final hour…
the hour is now if you so choose…
a Higher Power will fill your shoes…
if you ask he is there Serenity awaits with only a prayer...............

 

 

Bottle

I’m really inspired to write this because I've been through and witnessed what this disease can do to people. I'm 40 years old and it destroyed my life. I turned my addiction into a positive instead of a negative. My goal is to inspire people to become sober and live a healthy, happy life.

Bottle

you see the bottle,
and don't no what to do
you want some,
but you don't know what will happen to you
your mind says go ahead,
one will be fine
but you know what happens when you cross that line
you keep trying to convince yourself that it will be alright
but you know it will take control,
no matter how hard you fight
your will becomes weaker,
and the temptations start to grow
your resentments are winning,
and your victories are low
you convince yourself its ok,
and finally give in
another loss for you, and for the bottle
another win.

A Letter from our Disease

Hello fellow addicts I am your disease,
I will never let you sleep or put your mind at ease,
I will always be here no matter where you go,
I am smarter than you and I am in control,
Family, friends, and loved ones they won't matter anymore,
I'll take everything you got and still want something more
I was there for you in the good times but mostly in the bad,
I've made you feel so happy but in the end you was always sad
You will lie to everyone and say that I ain't real,
but if that's the case why can't you put down that bottel
I come in many forms, and shapes, and size
Then following comes denial, deceit, and lies
I will turn you from everyone that tries to take you from me
Together we will spend all eternity
I'll embrace you in my arms and I'll never set you free,
Spend our life together won't that make you happy,
Don't let those people tell you what I am all about,
Cause then you'll find a way; a way to kick me out
Well here I go now I'll just be on my way
but not for to much longer cause I still have much to say
So when you think I'm gone and you can finally be at ease,
Just remember this I will always be your disease.

My Wife, My Treasure

The Story behind this poem is the love of my life, My Hemi. We have been married for 7 years; coming May 19th we will celebrate 8 years since our first kiss. She is my love, my best friend, the mother of our 2 daughters’

My Wife, My Treasure

I had walked through life with nothing until you, until you I knew no pleasure
and then one day God sent you to me to the eye so beautiful, you, my wife and my treasure.

A gift from God, a gift so fine that you can never be measured A love so fine so sweet, so kind, it’s you my love, you my wife, my treasure.

 

I promise to hug and kiss and hold you each day, I promise a love with devotion that will never ever fade away.

I promise and swear to God above,
To show you nothing but my pure love I will admire the blessing of your boundless love.

Because I know that you are a true gift from Heaven Above, I will not hurt you with my frustrations.

 

I will hold you close and kiss you with loving admiration, I will always appreciate your commitment to me.

Give me a chance for can't you see  This is not a game of chance that we play, It is true love that I swear is committed to stay.

You say that at times you are afraid
This one I can find no rhyme so let me be clear, I will, Love you endlessly.

Devote my life to making you happy Admire you each day for the person you are, Take entrust in the things that you like to do.

Admire your beauty daily in awe and reflect it back to you Be attentive to you and you needs Be forgiving.

Listen to you with never a harsh word in return (I swear it and pray for it in Gods name) Show you by my actions that I love you.

 

Be more open and fun to you, your family & friends

Never go to bed with out you Rub you, kiss you, bathe you, lift you up or what ever it takes when you are feeling down.

I will Kiss you and love you all that I possibly can, And don't be embarrassed to be seen holding my hand.

I will treasure each day as if it were our last, And at the end of your life you won't regret me being your past.

You are the sunshine in my morning and like a the bird I will sing you a song I know that in this life when I am troubled through God it's you who keeps me strong.

You are the mother of my children and the air that gives me life. My truest friend of all, my heart, my soul, my wife.

 

I love you very much, you are all that is good in this world. My love for you is unconditional and enduring To you

I promise to always be reassuring

My love for you protects you and is honorable To you I promise to always be faithful My love for you is understanding and passionate

To you I promise to always be compassionate My love for you is thoughtful and cherishing To you I promise to always be devoted and caring

My love for you is patient and kind
To you I promise this always until the end of time My love for you is selfless and forgiving

 

To you I promise this always, for as long as I am living My love for you is devoted and encouraging To you I promise to always listen and never be detouring

I promise to show you my wife that I love you in all that I do I can promise these things because with all of my heart I love you.

Hand in hand we walk together,
God's grace warms us from above. It's him I thank each day I wake for blessing me with all your love.

The sunshine in my morning
and the bird that sings my song. In this life when I am troubled through
God it's you who keeps me strong.

The wind beneath my wings as this eagle takes to flight. You are the stars that brighten up my sky in the darkness of the night.

 

 

The mother of my children and the air that gives me life. My truest friend of all...my heart, my soul, my wife.

Thank you

My name is Venkatesh and I am the Elder of  Four children. My parents taught us growing up that God and family are there for you when no one else is. As a result of our upbringing, we are a very close knit family. My family has stood by my side through the good times and the bad, as I have been there for them. Without their support I am not sure I would be where I am today. My family is comprised of not only my parents, and sisters, but also my true and loyal Wife.

Family

F- Fiercely loyal to those we love.
A- Accepting each for whom
         and what They are.
M- matchless in our hopes and dreams 
         For one another.
I- Instilling pride in our hard fought
           Heritage.
L- Learning about our past guides
          us in The future.
Y- You love and cherish the people of
           Your heart.
Saying thank you can be a difficult thing to do. Doing so means admitting that you are in another's debt. I am admitting that another individual did something for me. I am not all powerful; I need the help of others to survive. The reality is that the human race is interdependent. We cannot live life alone. We are constantly relying on each other for all kinds of resources, both physical and emotional. When I say thank you I am acknowledging that I have received something from another human being.

The role of a wife has changed significantly during the last hundred years. Woman now have more freedom than ever before to choose their role in life and marriage. Many woman may decide to invest heavily in a career and push off childbearing until a later age. Other woman decide that they want to be a wife in the traditional sense. Husbands and wives can make all kinds of arrangements that are perfectly workable between each other. It is important that both parties are aware of the expectations that the other are bringing into the marriage so that there isn't friction later on.

 

I dedicate this poem to my wife

That Someone Special

She is the apple of my eye,
The reason that I live.
She is all that I could wish for.
My heart to her I give.

It is for that someone special,
These words that I do pen,
To thank her for always being,
My wife and my best friend.

She has the will to live until,
The last breath she does take,
There is the love within her heart,
Such good memories to make.

She is the sunshine in my morning,
The star that's in my sky,
And if I should ever lose her,
Then I would surely die.

She stands always at my side,
No matter what comes our way.
She comforts me with steadfast love,
Each and every day.She carries many burdens,
And her heart is sometimes broken,
By all the thanks she never gets,
And all the words unspoken.

I know her life is not her own,
I always seem so needy,
And asking her to do one more thing,
I feel so really greedy.

How can I ever thank her,
For all she has done for me?
I can only give her all my heart,
And love her to eternity.

She is One I should treasure,

But not as a possession,
Who needs to be loved,

Not treated with aggression.

Her value is more than

All the world's treasures,
Not just the sum of

Scale’s unit measures.

 

She should always be built up,

Not torn down,

By all the words I speak,
When she is around.

She needs to be hugged
And not pushed away,
Especially when We both
Having a really bad day.

Words spoken to her
In haste and anger
Can place her fragile
Heart in danger

She should be admired
For her boundless love
And looked upon as
A true gift from Above.

Not used as a target
For all My frustration
But held close and kissed
With loving admiration.

I should always appreciate
her commitment to me
And not take for granted what
she's given up for me!

Kiss her and love her
all that I possibly can
And don't be embarrassed
To be seen holding her hand.

Treasure each day
as If it were the last,

I hope that when the end comes,
And she meets God face to face,
He will tell her that in Heaven,
She has a special place.