The alcoholic is like a tornado roaring his way through the lives of others. Hearts are broken. Sweet relationships are dead. Affections have been uprooted. Selfish and inconsiderate habits have kept the home in turmoil. We feel a man is unthinking when he says that sobriety is enough.
- Alcoholics Anonymous, p. 82.
The storm has passed. I've learned a little more about peace. It was inside all the time.
C H A O S = Creating Havoc Around OurSelves.
Hi, I'm Venki, an recovering Alcoholic. The Big Book (p.83) tells us, "Yes, there is a long road of reconstruction ahead. We must take the lead." When I was drinking, I used to call myself "a whirlwind wherever I go" and I would boast of that! Come to find out, I'm really a tornado wreaking much more damage than I could see in front of me. Now, almost 6 months without a drink, I've found myself in the eye of the storm again, only with my emotional sobriety this time. The last few months, I have come to terms with the fact that just being sober is NOT enough. Because of a change in my work schedule, and also the changes my body is going through physically, as I am 5 months pregnant now, I have only been making two or three meeting a week. Thank God for the service positions that force me to commit. two meetings a week is not enough. But I know how to put an end to it -- ACTION! Even when I don't feel like it, even when it's the last thing I want to do, if I feel deep down that I'm supposed to be doing something, I know the outcome will overcome the fear I have once I just DO IT. I need more meetings, more meditation, more service, and more communication with God. I am determined to pull myself out of this funk! With the kit of spiritual tools this program has given me, I have been a fool to not use them daily.
- Alcoholics Anonymous, p. 82.
The storm has passed. I've learned a little more about peace. It was inside all the time.
C H A O S = Creating Havoc Around OurSelves.
Hi, I'm Venki, an recovering Alcoholic. The Big Book (p.83) tells us, "Yes, there is a long road of reconstruction ahead. We must take the lead." When I was drinking, I used to call myself "a whirlwind wherever I go" and I would boast of that! Come to find out, I'm really a tornado wreaking much more damage than I could see in front of me. Now, almost 6 months without a drink, I've found myself in the eye of the storm again, only with my emotional sobriety this time. The last few months, I have come to terms with the fact that just being sober is NOT enough. Because of a change in my work schedule, and also the changes my body is going through physically, as I am 5 months pregnant now, I have only been making two or three meeting a week. Thank God for the service positions that force me to commit. two meetings a week is not enough. But I know how to put an end to it -- ACTION! Even when I don't feel like it, even when it's the last thing I want to do, if I feel deep down that I'm supposed to be doing something, I know the outcome will overcome the fear I have once I just DO IT. I need more meetings, more meditation, more service, and more communication with God. I am determined to pull myself out of this funk! With the kit of spiritual tools this program has given me, I have been a fool to not use them daily.
