Sunday, November 18, 2012

Carrying the message

 


". . . we tried to carry this message to alcoholics." What message? Hope. Example. The way out. The way back. A handful of simple principles to unravel most of our snarled-up problems. A touch of humor -- not taking ourselves so damned seriously. Meetings. Availability. Talk, talk, talk. . ."Carrying the message" is all these things.

- The Best of the Grapevine [Vol. 2], p. 179
 In AA we carry the message ... not the mess.

E S H = Experience, Strength and Hope.




Since drug abuse and addiction have so many scopes and disturb so many aspects of an individual’s life, healing is not simple. Valuable treatment programs characteristically include many mechanisms, each going to a particular piece of the sickness and its consequences. Addiction management must assist the person to stop using drugs, sustain a drug-free way of life, and attain fruitful functioning in the family unit, at work, and in the general public. Due to the fact that substance abuse is in general a chronic disease, addicts are not able to just end the use of drugs for a short time and be cured. Most addicts need long-term or recurring episodes of care to attain the decisive goal of sustained abstinence and recovery of their lives.

Drug addiction is a multifaceted illness distinguished by powerful and, at times, unmanageable drug desire, along with uncontrollable drug in search of and use that persist even in the face of overwhelming consequences. Despite the fact that the path to drug dependence begins with the deliberate act of using drugs, as time goes by, a person’s aptitude to select not to do so gets compromised, and looking for and taking drugs becomes neurotic. This conduct results mainly from the consequences of extended drug exposure on brain performance. Craving is a brain illness that impacts multiple brain functions, as well as the ones involved in gain and enthusiasm, knowledge and memory, and inhibitory control over behavior.


A Member Shares:
Good evening, I'm Ann, and I'm an alcoholic. This weekend, I had the pleasure to go to a group's anniversary meeting. There was great food, upbeat members, and lots of great sharing from the speakers. As I listened to the story of one speaker who had over 25 years of sobriety, I was struck by the sheer miracles we are privy to in AA. From the depths of despair to lives that are rich and full of laughter and goodwill, we truly do change radically if we are willing. The speaker's story reminded me of the times in my own life when I simply did not believe that anything or anyone could help. I felt so alone and inadequate and hopeless. Then, I recall waking up one day with a “knowing” of how to solve my problem. I absolutely knew that I would and could be safe; I had somehow found the power to carry it out. Within a week, my life had changed. I had gone from hopeless to empowered, and had no way to explain what had happened. Today, I know what that was. It was the same power I found one morning to stop the insanity of alcoholism. My life has been filled with such moments of grace. I will be sure there is no solution to some problem, and then it changes. It always seems it changes in a blink. And in AA, we share our stories with others. We share honestly about that despair, our insanity, and then the miracles of how we've been transformed. Even when I was drinking, I was attending AA open meetings fairly regularly. Do you not think I wasn't hearing those miracles while secretly drinking and worrying that I might have a real problem myself? Of course, I was. I am sober by the grace of God, for sure. But the generous sharing by AA members is how God carried the message to me, even when I was still drinking. I will be eternally grateful, too. Because that morning when I personally “woke up,” I had not a shred of doubt that AA works, that I would be OK, and that I knew exactly what to do next. I still need to be constantly reminded that there is simply no problem that God cannot and will not help me through in this life. I hear your courage, wisdom, and strength and I'm reminded that I, too, can tap into that power.

Saturday, November 17, 2012

Pause

Pause.
As we go through the day we pause, when agitated or doubtful, and ask for the right thought or action. We constantly remind ourselves we are no longer running the show, humbly saying to ourselves many times each day.
"Thy will be done." 

         ( courtesy AAOnline.net )

- Alcoholics Anonymous, pp. 87-88.

The Three "P's" -- Pause, Pray, Proceed.

P A U S E = Patience And Understanding Succeed Every time.

Friday, November 16, 2012

The grace of prayer

I have never been a writer of poet I was told to put my thoughts on paper. So I started writing my councilor said putting my thoughts on paper would help me stay clean. I am sober 140 days now, one day at a time. I hope this helps someone thanks Chase.
 
 
 
The grace of prayer.
I have lived a life of Isolation…
felt alone even in a congregation…
Fear of people places and things…
I stayed quiet so as not to be seen…
I used whiskey, rum, gin, and beer to hide my fear…
they gave false courage for a time…
but when morning came I felt only despair and grime…
on the dark side of life I have seen Love though myself un-aware…
of the feeling it brings to your soul or the songs it sings…
my dark side lives on the side of Pride….
Pride is evil for it brings false feelings anger and rage…
it has consumed me to the point I was back in a cage…
in that cell though not on my knee’s…
I prayed please end this insanity this disease…
I have the grace of a Higher Power today…
that lifts my spirit my thoughts and ways…
he brings a sense of ease to my reckless life…
and gave me Compassion to feel, wrong from right…
I once served sin but now I’m free…
I pray for Wisdom to shower my soul to be…
the thought of Peace is new you see…
not worrying what wrong is waiting for me…
Material things was my biggest fear I had to let go and let him steer…
all the material worries of what I have and what I don't…
is not important but hard to let go…
and my Lust for women and rich’s and power…
will turn to dust in that final hour…
the hour is now if you so choose…
a Higher Power will fill your shoes…
if you ask he is there Serenity awaits with only a prayer...............
 
 

Bottle

I’m really inspired to write this because I've been through and witnessed what this disease can do to people. I'm 40 years old and it destroyed my life. I turned my addiction into a positive instead of a negative. My goal is to inspire people to become sober and live a healthy, happy life.
Bottle
you see the bottle,
and don't no what to do
you want some,
but you don't know what will happen to you
your mind says go ahead,
one will be fine
but you know what happens when you cross that line
you keep trying to convince yourself that it will be alright
but you know it will take control,
no matter how hard you fight
your will becomes weaker,
and the temptations start to grow
your resentments are winning,
and your victories are low
you convince yourself its ok,
and finally give in
another loss for you, and for the bottle
another win.

A Letter from our Disease


Hello fellow addicts I am your disease,
I will never let you sleep or put your mind at ease,
I will always be here no matter where you go,
I am smarter than you and I am in control,
Family, friends, and loved ones they won't matter anymore,
I'll take everything you got and still want something more
I was there for you in the good times but mostly in the bad,
I've made you feel so happy but in the end you was always sad
You will lie to everyone and say that I ain't real,
but if that's the case why can't you put down that bottel

I come in many forms, and shapes, and size
Then following comes denial, deceit, and lies
I will turn you from everyone that tries to take you from me
Together we will spend all eternity
I'll embrace you in my arms and I'll never set you free,
Spend our life together won't that make you happy,
Don't let those people tell you what I am all about,
Cause then you'll find a way; a way to kick me out
Well here I go now I'll just be on my way
but not for to much longer cause I still have much to say
So when you think I'm gone and you can finally be at ease,
Just remember this I will always be your disease.