"It relieved me somewhat to learn that in alcoholics
the will is amazingly weakened when it comes to combating liquor, though it
often remains strong in other respects. My incredible behavior in the face of a
desperate desire to stop was explained. Understanding myself now, I fared forth
in high hope. For three or four months the goose hung high. I went to town
regularly and even made a little money. Surely this was the answer--self-knowledge."
__Bill Wilson.
Source: c. 1939, AAWS, Alcoholics Anonymous, Bill's
Story, p. 7
"No words can tell of the loneliness and despair I
found in that bitter morass of self-pity. Quicksand stretched around me in all
directions.I had met my match. Alcohol was my master."
__Bill Wilson.
Source: c. 1939, AAWS, Alcoholics Anonymous, Bill's
Story, p.8.
"My intellectual heroes, the chemists, the
astronomers, even the evolutionists, suggested vast laws and forces at work.
Despite contrary indications, I had little doubt that a might purpose and
rhythm underlay all. How could there be so much of precise and immutable law,
and no intelligence? I simply had to believe in a Spirit of the Universe, who
knew nether time nor limitation. But that was as far as I had gone."
__Bill Wilson.
Source: c. 1939, AAWS, Alcohoics Anonymous, Bill's Story,
p. 10.