Saturday, November 17, 2012

Pause

Pause.
As we go through the day we pause, when agitated or doubtful, and ask for the right thought or action. We constantly remind ourselves we are no longer running the show, humbly saying to ourselves many times each day.
"Thy will be done." 

         ( courtesy AAOnline.net )

- Alcoholics Anonymous, pp. 87-88.

The Three "P's" -- Pause, Pray, Proceed.

P A U S E = Patience And Understanding Succeed Every time.

Friday, November 16, 2012

The grace of prayer

I have never been a writer of poet I was told to put my thoughts on paper. So I started writing my councilor said putting my thoughts on paper would help me stay clean. I am sober 140 days now, one day at a time. I hope this helps someone thanks Chase.
 
 
 
The grace of prayer.
I have lived a life of Isolation…
felt alone even in a congregation…
Fear of people places and things…
I stayed quiet so as not to be seen…
I used whiskey, rum, gin, and beer to hide my fear…
they gave false courage for a time…
but when morning came I felt only despair and grime…
on the dark side of life I have seen Love though myself un-aware…
of the feeling it brings to your soul or the songs it sings…
my dark side lives on the side of Pride….
Pride is evil for it brings false feelings anger and rage…
it has consumed me to the point I was back in a cage…
in that cell though not on my knee’s…
I prayed please end this insanity this disease…
I have the grace of a Higher Power today…
that lifts my spirit my thoughts and ways…
he brings a sense of ease to my reckless life…
and gave me Compassion to feel, wrong from right…
I once served sin but now I’m free…
I pray for Wisdom to shower my soul to be…
the thought of Peace is new you see…
not worrying what wrong is waiting for me…
Material things was my biggest fear I had to let go and let him steer…
all the material worries of what I have and what I don't…
is not important but hard to let go…
and my Lust for women and rich’s and power…
will turn to dust in that final hour…
the hour is now if you so choose…
a Higher Power will fill your shoes…
if you ask he is there Serenity awaits with only a prayer...............
 
 

Bottle

I’m really inspired to write this because I've been through and witnessed what this disease can do to people. I'm 40 years old and it destroyed my life. I turned my addiction into a positive instead of a negative. My goal is to inspire people to become sober and live a healthy, happy life.
Bottle
you see the bottle,
and don't no what to do
you want some,
but you don't know what will happen to you
your mind says go ahead,
one will be fine
but you know what happens when you cross that line
you keep trying to convince yourself that it will be alright
but you know it will take control,
no matter how hard you fight
your will becomes weaker,
and the temptations start to grow
your resentments are winning,
and your victories are low
you convince yourself its ok,
and finally give in
another loss for you, and for the bottle
another win.

A Letter from our Disease


Hello fellow addicts I am your disease,
I will never let you sleep or put your mind at ease,
I will always be here no matter where you go,
I am smarter than you and I am in control,
Family, friends, and loved ones they won't matter anymore,
I'll take everything you got and still want something more
I was there for you in the good times but mostly in the bad,
I've made you feel so happy but in the end you was always sad
You will lie to everyone and say that I ain't real,
but if that's the case why can't you put down that bottel

I come in many forms, and shapes, and size
Then following comes denial, deceit, and lies
I will turn you from everyone that tries to take you from me
Together we will spend all eternity
I'll embrace you in my arms and I'll never set you free,
Spend our life together won't that make you happy,
Don't let those people tell you what I am all about,
Cause then you'll find a way; a way to kick me out
Well here I go now I'll just be on my way
but not for to much longer cause I still have much to say
So when you think I'm gone and you can finally be at ease,
Just remember this I will always be your disease.

My Wife, My Treasure


The Story behind this poem is the love of my life, My Hemi. We have been married for 7 years; coming May 19th we will celebrate 8 years since our first kiss. She is my love, my best friend, the mother of our 2 daughters’

My Wife, My Treasure

I had walked through life with nothing until you, until you I knew no pleasure
and then one day God sent you to me to the eye so beautiful, you, my wife and my treasure.
A gift from God, a gift so fine that you can never be measured A love so fine so sweet, so kind, it’s you my love, you my wife, my treasure.

 
I promise to hug and kiss and hold you each day, I promise a love with devotion that will never ever fade away.
I promise and swear to God above,
To show you nothing but my pure love
I will admire the blessing of your boundless love.
Because I know that you are a true gift from Heaven Above, I will not hurt you with my frustrations.

 
I will hold you close and kiss you with loving admiration, I will always appreciate your commitment to me.
Give me a chance for can't you see  This is not a game of chance that we play, It is true love that I swear is committed to stay.
You say that at times you are afraid
This one I can find no rhyme so let me be clear,
I will, Love you endlessly.
Devote my life to making you happy Admire you each day for the person you are, Take entrust in the things that you like to do.
Admire your beauty daily in awe and reflect it back to you Be attentive to you and you needs Be forgiving.
Listen to you with never a harsh word in return (I swear it and pray for it in Gods name) Show you by my actions that I love you.

 

Be more open and fun to you, your family & friends


Never go to bed with out you Rub you, kiss you, bathe you, lift you up or what ever it takes when you are feeling down.
I will Kiss you and love you all that I possibly can, And don't be embarrassed to be seen holding my hand.
I will treasure each day as if it were our last, And at the end of your life you won't regret me being your past.

You are the sunshine in my morning and like a the bird I will sing you a song I know that in this life when I am troubled through God it's you who keeps me strong.
You are the mother of my children and the air that gives me life. My truest friend of all, my heart, my soul, my wife.

 
I love you very much, you are all that is good in this world. My love for you is unconditional and enduring To you

I promise to always be reassuring
My love for you protects you and is honorable To you I promise to always be faithful My love for you is understanding and passionate

To you I promise to always be compassionate My love for you is thoughtful and cherishing To you I promise to always be devoted and caring
My love for you is patient and kind
To you I promise this always until the end of time
My love for you is selfless and forgiving

 
To you I promise this always, for as long as I am living My love for you is devoted and encouraging To you I promise to always listen and never be detouring
I promise to show you my wife that I love you in all that I do I can promise these things because with all of my heart I love you.
Hand in hand we walk together,
God's grace warms us from above.
It's him I thank each day I wake for blessing me with all your love.
The sunshine in my morning
and the bird that sings my song.
In this life when I am troubled through
God it's you who keeps me strong.
The wind beneath my wings as this eagle takes to flight. You are the stars that brighten up my sky in the darkness of the night.



 
 
The mother of my children and the air that gives me life. My truest friend of all...my heart, my soul, my wife.